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I grew up in northern California in a Christian home of Asian immigrants. As the youngest of five, I witnessed my family work hard to carve out a better living for themselves in this land of opportunity. Despite such love in my family, I had a hard time in school and began to suffer from depression at a very early age. This went undiagnosed for many years and therefore untreated, causing my adolescence to be more tumultuous than most. Although I recognized that the Lord Jesus was real, I had a difficult time connecting His life and work to my experience. One could say I had an “objective” relationship with Christ: I knew He was my Savior, but apart from saving me from eternal perdition, I didn't know if He was able to save me from my day to day hell. I read much psychology and sociology and briefly explored eastern philosophies in my search for the solution to mankind's immediate problems. Every one had good theories, but nothing registered in my being as the absolute truth. As I continued to grow up, my desperation for truth in my life increased, as well as my searching. Not finding anything satisfactory, I often despaired even of living.
I moved to southern California to attend a university and study art. By the Lord's infinite mercy He brought me to meet regularly with some brothers and sisters who meet with the local churches. Although I had grown up in these meetings, I had never fully tasted the reality of all that I heard in them. These dear ones in the local church in Long Beach took care of me and with them I began to delve into the ministry of Watchman Nee and Witness Lee. I could honestly say that if it were not for the soundness of their ministry, I would not be alive today. I had reached the point where I felt that I could not live happily by theory alone-I needed the TRUTH. The truth is in the Bible, but this truth needs to be properly expounded. This truth also needs to be ministered in a way that the believer can be ushered into the daily experience of what he or she has seen, not merely obtain a doctrinal understanding. Under this ministry the light that I had been searching for was discovered. My relationship with God has been restored. Moreover, I am currently attending a Full-Time Training in Bible truths and church service. Here, I am daily nourished by this ministry and learning to experience the Lord saving me every day. Praise God that the truth has set me free!
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